oh God. . please, fix the fates

I am hoping and talking to God whether there still remains only a chance for me to fix my fate.
What I am hoping is just simple, but it seems so hard actually.
OOOHHH. . God
First, of course I wanna say thank anyway for anything You've given to me.
But, as a your common creature, I still wanna something better for my life.
Ohhhh.....God
gives Your strength please, to my family
gives your happiness, health, and convenience to my parents
gives a beautiful or handsome baby to my first brother
gives a devoted and nice lady to my second brother
and.........
definitely, gives your awesome male creature for me . . *smiling n winking*


those are so simple right, God
May my family and I get them immediately or at least 'till this year???
,, so begging please


God, I'll utter this prayer all the time
5 times in a day
hopefully, You'll hear this short desire

Live My Life

I just felt that I have just been hypnotized
I have been cheated
I have been trapped


How terribly stupid I was. .
I don't wanna be such a fool now


I won't feel regret too
just lose the one who have ever been in my life for so long


hey YOU. .
Don't you know know how suck you are??
cause I just feel how suck I am


A very deeply gratitude extended to God
how kind You, God, gives a light again for me
guide me to a way under Your blessing




I promise that I don't wanna be so obsessed anymore
I just wanna be alone now
live my life
even without any desire of giving love or being loved




i don't even more care
bout anything . .
In fact, really miss this condition back to me

Stuck. .Bored. .Silent

. I was terribly bored with my life. I really wanted something to refresh my mind. Yes, perhaps, I needed something new. . something which/who could bring my happiness again. Every night, I was trying to reach what I called my newborn hope. That hope seemed really closed to me. What I should do was just keep reaching it. Yet, that hope suddenly turned into dim and faded away from me.

I was lost and trapped in an old ugly hope which might not appear again. Was it stupid if I still wish for that?  

I am waiting. . I am silent 

I am stuck. . I am paralyzed 

I am bored. . I am vindicated

Let me hold your hands. .

Release, and let you go. .

GOD!Is it my destiny? 

My two BFFs with the one behind the camera..
What a lovely moment  with all of you guys. . .
It seems that it is almost for the end of time for being in a togetherness with you. . .
Let's reach our future  . . Let's end up and break up our thesis. .
n have many nice pictures of graduation. . .

The Citizens’ Perceptions towards the Banner of Subsidized Premium Petrol

Nowadays, Indonesian government actually has already been aware of the economic condition around its country. It can be seen through the regulation on the premium subsidized petrol which apparently is produced for those who belong to the low-middle class. In fact, this condition is not implemented in a proper order since most Indonesian citizens from any living levels still purchase the premium petrol for their vehicles. That is why the government attempts to solve this problem by putting some wall banners in some gas stations to proclaim the citizens especially from the middle-high class to not purchase for the subsidized petrol.                                          

Almost in every gas station in Indonesia, it will be easily found some wall banners which contain vague meanings. For example in one of gas stations along JL. Prambanan-Piyungan, Yogyakarta, there is a big banner on behalf of the Ministry of Energy and Mineral Resource, inscribed with a reminder, “Premium is the subsidized petrol only for the incapable citizen class”. This reminder actually is still vague knowing the fact that the word “incapable” has a broad and relative meaning.  People can define this word into various meanings which perhaps will be different from one another. Moreover, everybody also possibly perceives that he or she is not capable enough for buying the non-subsidized petrol which means that he or she deserves to make a demand on the premium petrol.

            Dealing with the reminder towards the subsidized petrol, a further analysis is beneficially needed to find out the real sense of the incapable condition within the citizens. The word “incapable” actually is derived from one base “capable” which is added by the prefix “in” to present the negative sense. According to the Indonesian dictionary, the word “incapable” is defined into two distinct meanings. First, it refers to the incapability of someone to do something and second, it is defined as the incapability to have more possessions, to be rich, and in an adequate living.  Correlated to the government’s reminder on the premium petrol, the second definition towards the word “incapable” is mostly appropriate to be attributable to this case.

            If what the government means in the wall banner is regarded with the incapable condition to fulfill the needs, the sense within can be interlinked to the satire meaning. Perhaps, the government wants to quip the citizens who has been basically capable, but they still make a purchase for the premium petrol. However, how if this case is reversed into the real sense of incapability, whether it is sensible to refer those who belong to the incapable living class are capable to make a demand for the premium petrol. It is clearly defined that the word “incapable” refers to the incapability to have more possession and be well off. People who live in this condition certainly will not be able to buy the additional needs including the premium petrol. Therefore, why the government should attach the word “incapable” aims to, if the negative sense is intended to the positive thought.         

In order to have broad understandings towards the content of the premium petrol banner, some citizens’ perceptions towards the incapability case are adopted. When the banner photo was shown to Dian (21), a college student, she acknowledged that this banner basically aimed to present a satire sense, but it failed to present a clear view. Apparently, this perception is also in line with what Fendika (21) and Triana (21), college students, perceived. They thought that it has been difficult for the incapable living class or pauper filling their basic needs, such as for foods, clothes, and shelters instead of purchasing for the additional need like the petrol. According to Bappenas through the final study on the social protection for the pauper, poverty is defined as the incapability of someone or households to fulfill their responsibilities on their basic needs. In another word, the banner on the premium petrol is not accord with the reality and the relation of poverty and incapability.

Dealing further with the vague view on the banner of premium patrol, Landjijono (60), a retired civil servant, perceived that the government actually was not serious in encouraging their citizens especially for the low-middle class to change over the non-subsidized petrol. In fact, there are still so many governmental vehicles purchasing for the subsidized petrol. Does Indonesian government also belong to the incapable living class which is only capable to purchase for the premium petrol? It is so pathetic knowing the fact that the government apparently is not consistent. Landdjijono (60) even added that it would be better for the government to create a meaningful reminder rather than to present a satire banner mostly for self-addressing.

Apparently, the existence of vague banner towards the premium petrol also intrudes Dinata (30), a house wife. Through kompasiana, she presented her opinions towards the satire banner. At first, she was quite teased by the content in the banner in which she was actually quite wealth, but still purchasing for the premium petrol. However, she just ignored this banner because she thought that it did not a matter for her to be classified into the incapable class, as long as she was still allowed to make a demand on the subsidized petrol. This phenomenon actually is interesting, but a bit strange. Dinata even added that it has been so apprehensive knowing the fact that most of Indonesian people belong to the incapable living class because they purchase for the premium petrol more often. However, if the condition compares to the definition of “incapable”, it will not be appropriate anymore. Are now most Indonesian people are incapable to have more possessions? Absolutely, not at all! People who are capable to have vehicles and afford of buying the petrol cannot be classified into the incapable living class.

The word “incapable” stated in the banner basically is intended to present a satire sense, but it fails due to the reality within the citizens. What definitions the government applies that makes the meaning of incapability becomes so vague. Moreover, it will not accord with the fact if the premium petrol consumers including the government belong to a class of incapable people or pauper. Most of citizens’ perceptions towards this case also vary from one another, but all of them acknowledged that the content of the premium petrol banner does not provide a clear sense. The government certainly should be more consistent in creating a comprehensive and meaningful reminder. Nowadays, the citizens are going more critical towards any cases related to the reality around them. That is why the qualified and logical dictions are needed to prevent the misconceptions towards the reality. 

What is called by "the rich"?

Now, I am writing it in English, but it does not consider that I just wanna to show off or no matter what they are. Actually, it was just a silly simple story which actually is so common around us. It's about 'the rich'. What do you think of being rich??? , I exactly know everyone of course wanna be 'the rich'.However, what 'the rich' actually means.  There are a lot of the classifications of 'the rich' with its so many different social class. 

I don't care even 'you' also belong to  'the rich' or not. Most people really like doing such a fool deed by showing off what they have to others. Yet, what will u get then after that? much compliment? hatred? pride? prestige? are u feeling enough or full with so much great things around you? woohh. . what arrogant you are then. 

What I am learning now is how to be such a humble person. Being grateful of anything that we have is soooo much better than always complaining every matter coming to us. Just look at down! Don't just always look above or even over than you. That just makes you always feel less than what you've had now. 

Definitely, I wanna belong to  'the rich', but I wanna  be 'the rich' who really appreciate every single thing which ever comes to me.